Straight Through Me

Posted by on September 20, 2014

A past friend always advised me to always keep it real. Continue being transparent and tell people like it is. And regardless of that which you face – “Keep soaring.”

This is such a day. Another precious friend gifted me a red leather bound copy of “Steps to Christ” some time ago. This passage is marked. “Keep your wants, your joys, your sorrows, you cares and your fears before God. You cannot burden Him; you cannot weary Him.”

Invisible footsteps tip toe through my mind reminding me of days now gone by. Funny how we never live life quite to the fullest of its potential.  The autumn breezes are here. Summer is fading and with it my little four legged friend, now buried in the shade of the limbs at the edge of the woods. The last of the fresh blue Hydrangeas sit in a vase along with lil’ Spikey’s collar marking his grave.

It’s silent and the few people that would be present on this stretch of land are gone. What peace and strange tranquility try to emerge in the breezes and rustling leaves that whisper comforting sounds.

I find myself wondering what Jesus pondered when He would come away from those who leant Him their ear as well as those who spit in His face and jeered at Him.  He must have spent a great deal of time talking it over with His Father who had approved of His mission when they contemplated it while still in the wondrous glory of heaven.

Today my mind tells me that I know God is near and that He knows every care and concern on my heart. “Feelings” don’t always accompany truth. You see I am continuing to witness some of God’s precious children trying to reinvent Him and His Word to us. The vivid example of self-exaltation and rebellion. I try and point to Jesus and yet for some, it seems their ears are plugged and they refuse to hear.  I am called to continued acts of self-denial and surrender. It’s clear to me that it has to be about Jesus.  I seek further humility daily.  Perhaps it is my somber “feelings” today that confirm such humility.  Not sure. Feelings of hope.

“Especially solemn is the apostle’s statement regarding those who should refuse to receive “the love of the truth.” “For this cause,” he declared of all who should deliberately reject the messages of truth, “God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie: that they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.” Men cannot with impunity reject the warnings that God in mercy sends them. From those who persist in turning from these warnings, God withdraws His Spirit, leaving them to the deceptions that they love.” AA pg 262.2

I began to realize that that could be happening.  Introspectively I see so much in my life that needs further surrender and agreement with God. I read today of how Satan made strong attempts through appetite to gain an edge on Jesus and how he will seek to control our appetite and passions.  So many today can’t see with any clarity how Satan is rapidly gaining control while there is a claim of “godliness” among us.

I began to take deeper notice and study of exactly what happened when iniquity stuck its ugly head up in the kingdom of God. It is said that Lucifer bowed with praise as did the other angels, but refused to let go of the desire to be higher than God and in control.  He made it appear as though he were in agreement while he was detouring other angels with his plans and speak against God.

God has made His plan and His ways clear to us. The masked ugly self-serving influence of Satan works like a hidden bacteria.  People don’t even realize the upheaval and rebellion that is materializing as they reject His perfect plan.

“It is a masterpiece of Satan’s deceptions to keep the minds of men searching and conjecturing in regard to that which God has not made known and which He does not intend that we shall understand. It was thus that Lucifer lost his place in heaven.”  Darkness before Dawn pg. 9 

There are those arguing and rewriting the meaning of scripture to mean something other than what it says in order to gain that which the heart desires.  That desperate, wicked heart that fails and refuses to agree with the King.

“I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.”  Psalm 119:11  When a person doesn’t do with “temptation” that which we are told, it begins to rule a life. It becomes truth for many.  Lies become truth and hearts are hardened. But so unnecessarily. In this there comes this drive to want to say or present God’s truth clearer and more distinctly. But many refuse to listen except to their own rebelling words of shallow comfort in the moment.

It is in contemplation of the loss of my little guy that I thought about how it must feel to be the Creator of someone you love and to see them turn from you in total defiance when you have done everything to draw them out of darkness and into the life-giving light.

Jesus doesn’t force His way in.  In the final book of His loving Word to us He makes a final plea. “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.” Revelation 3:20

My continued prayer is that I will continue to invite Him in every moment of every day. And I continue to pray that those who are steadfast in their “theology” according to self will be abandoned and that they will be washed in the blood that makes us whiter than snow.

“The warfare against self is the greatest battle that was ever fought. The yielding of self, surrendering all to the will of God, requires a struggle; but the soul must submit to God before it can be renewed in holiness.” Steps To Christ – pg 43

Feelings will lie to us. We may experience sadness for a time. But God’s Word and His plan for us refresh in knowing who we are in Him. 

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