Hold Me Now

Posted by on July 28, 2013

Have you experienced rejection, alienation and disregard?  Where?  Was it at birth?  Was it as school? Was it in the church?

Satan lies to us and tells us that we don’t matter, that we are not loved and we don’t belong here. Then the stage is set in our pain and despair for his lies to play out. He begs to take your focus off of your only life support system. Jesus Christ.

But think about Jesus for a few moments. At birth He was being sought to be killed. In fact many lives were taken just trying to find Him and snuff His life. Yet His Father continued to clear the way for Him. He didn’t have a simple life and He asks us to model ours after His.  Yet we drive a comfortable ride, sit in front of the television, go to movies, concerts, etc. continually pleasure seeking.

It’s that pain of rejection and isolation that we are trying to fill. We keep pouring stuff in there trying to reach “satisfaction.” Some people fill it with a good novel. Others with a bottle of booze. Some with a needle in their arm and others with a sex fix. All of it provides a temporary fix.

The sin of Adam and Eve had a devastating effect on a perfect world. It would be costly. Consequences brought about death and decay. Shame and pain would quickly be relevant to something that should never have happened. All because of deciding that “self” knew better than God. 

The Great Controversy had begun. Satan was making his mark and laying claim. He was signaling to God that his ways were better. In the perfect creation of man and woman, God knew that His power and influence would remain by giving us the power of choice.  He would then hold out to Satan that “there will be a people.”  A people that would realize the difference between good and evil. A people that would choose to honor and believe in their Creator … knowing that He only wants the very best for us. It’s our choice as to whom we will serve.

Jesus grew up and walked in the face of adversity, ridicule and temptation. He didn’t receive much in the way of love. He showered people with truth and redemption and healing. In the weakened state of so many… they reached out to Him with a simple belief. It was the only hope they could see and Jesus was providing the promise of healing and salvation.  A most touching and beautiful story where He ultimately bears His own cross and offers His life weighted by every sin we would ever commit. He loved us while we are sinners. He offers us so much if we will believe.

He shares His pain and shows us that we could not know such pain by comparison and promises to see us through if we will reach out and grasp Him.  He tells us that the truth will set us free. John 8. He promises to never leave or forsake us.  “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

The world belongs to the prince of darkness and he is stealing lives because they choose not to believe in what they cannot see. The faith and trust walk seems too difficult and they believe the lies of deception continually being introduced to them in so many different ways.  God keeps being accused of being too rigid and legalistic. Yet because of His GREAT love for us He has provided us with His precious Word as a guide for us. A staff of life! We complain, banter, debate, argue and dismiss.  He continues to say;  “I love you! I lived and died for you. Come to me and I will give you rest.”

There is NOTHING that He cannot heal, restore or comfort. He says “Trust me!”

Today I have been struck with a pain so immense that Satan is trying to swallow me whole!  He’s yelling at me about how it’s just not worth it.. so head my direction and let me show you what I’ve got that will sedate, satisfy and fix. But their all lies! They’re all dead ends.  He’s trying to tell me today that I am meaningless and downright disposable. That I don’t belong, matter and am certainly not loved. He’s lying to me about all the good that Jesus has tried to express through me and to me.

Today my heart is an open bleeding wound that feels like it would be impossible to heal. And still I hear my Savior say… “Come to me and let me give you rest. Let me give you water from the fountain of life and heal your painful wound.” The pain keeps stabbing me.  It briefly subsides and then comes back with an even stronger force. We live in risk. How much are we willing to risk for Jesus? What does it take for me to gain my confidence and see my value in Him?

Can He heal me?   “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Don’t let your pain elude you and keep you from the best physician known to man. Bring your heartache to Jesus. Let Him heal you. I’m reminded of the verse that won me to my Creator. Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”   He’s asking me to simply believe, trust and move forward in faith. He knew me before I was born and has great plans for me. I am His and He is mine. Nothing and no one will come between.

I write from my personal life experience. I have found that it has been reflective of what many have experienced. I ask that Jesus will somehow use me to help someone else hang on.

My walk is not easy. I have seen great darkness! But Jesus saved me and I refuse to let Satan reclaim me. And for those who are seeking to criticize or be skeptical… I have not had a sexual fall. I have lost something I deeply treasured which had enormous value. A friendship.

Jesus … Hold me now. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkEF3K4NbjQ







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