Anything or Nothing

Posted by on October 8, 2011

Every few months I have been incited by the seemingly lack of willingness of organized church leaders to reach out to the same-sex attracted soul or homosexual.  For fifty seven years the church has not take an interest in my cross.

And so you might get a small glimpse of the pain and woundedness this oversight has rendered. But ultimately… what is my responsibility? What has God called me to do? How does He want to go about providing me with peace and love… even from those who seem to have offended me? If my anger is stirred by those who do not understand, I am allowing what Jesus offers me to be overrun by yet another influence of Satan.

I am a willing vessel.  Jesus does not say that He is going to use me instantly or even at all. The whole process and evaluation of what is happening in my life … is where I must make sure I maintain my vital connection to Jesus experiencing the peace and promises He freely offers me.

In the Desire Of Ages, author Ellen White has written this:  “Let the repenting sinner fix his eyes upon “the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world” (John 1:29); and by beholding, he becomes changed. His fear is turned to joy, his doubts to hope. Gratitude springs up. The stony heart is broken. A tide of love sweeps into the soul. Christ is in him a well of water springing up unto everlasting life. When we see Jesus, a Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief, working to save the lost, slighted, scorned, derided, driven from city to city till His mission was accomplished; when we behold Him in Gethsemane, sweating great drops of blood, and on the cross dying in agony,—when we see this, self will no longer clamor to be recognized. Looking unto Jesus, we shall be ashamed of our coldness, our lethargy, our self-seeking. We shall be willing to be anything or nothing, so that we may do heart service for the Master. We shall rejoice to bear the cross after Jesus, to endure trial, shame, or persecution for His dear sake. “{DA 439.3}

I should not be driven by what I want to accomplish. That would put the focus on me instead of my heavenly redeemer. Humility can be a stirring lesson. We can seek to accomplish and not even realize that it is “I” that is getting in the way.  We must let Christ lead. He will bring all good things to fruition. He will let us know when He wants to use us if that is His plan.

His plan for me is always this: again from Desire of Ages:  “Unless we become vitally connected with God, we can never resist the unhallowed effects of self-love, self-indulgence, and temptation to sin. We may leave off many bad habits, for the time we may part company with Satan; but without a vital connection with God, through the surrender of ourselves to Him moment by moment, we shall be overcome. Without a personal acquaintance with Christ, and a continual communion, we are at the mercy of the enemy, and shall do his bidding in the end.”

Only in surrendering myself to Christ moment by moment and abiding in Him continuously is God able to convey His work for me.  Being in tune with Him will heighten my senses to hearing His plan for me.

While in the face of adversity and among those speaking self truths or directing souls to live by their feelings, Jesus simply asks that I state the truth that He has revealed to me through His Word and His divine influence. He will than work with the observer or listener via the Holy Spirit. It is no my duty to convict. Only the power of God can change lives. Self can quickly and almost unnoticeably seek to take control of that which is not within my power to do.

Humility is difficult after having felt like a nothing or no matter all my life. Self strives to be lifted up. But God asks that I seek Him and lift Him up.  Aligning ourselves with Him is a daily process requiring our utmost commitment.

I am continually in need of your prayers.

Wayne Blakely

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