Archive for August, 2011

AFFIRMATIONS – Dangerous Territory

Posted by on August 27, 2011  |  No Comments

From as early as I can remember I experienced rejection. I believe it was with that realization that I would then seek to say and do things that hopefully result in affirmation, confirmation and praise. Another way of seeking what I considered to be genuine love.

The little horned guy doesn’t waste any time in confusing us and deceiving us with every opportunity. So it is with God allowing lesson after lesson to be presented before us until we get His message. I’ve never stopped seeking this idea of pleasing others and trying to conform to what would be readily accepted. It’s because of these mind rituals that I believe I have drowned out the voice of God sometimes.

In developing a thought or plan of action, I (perhaps we) immediately run it by someone else to get confirmation that what we are contemplating is approved. Even if we’ve been praying about it for a long time.  Instead of being patient and waiting on the Lord for His answers, I seem to put duct tape over His mouth and settle on the answer …or even argue with someone else until a conclusion is reached. After all that, how would I know if the conclusion was from God?

How dangerous. I set myself up to possibly be deceived. While God’s answer may be completely different, it is possible that Satan derails the final outcome by my placing the focus on someone else.

Isaiah 40:31 ESV  “But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”

By waiting and listening for God, I could refine the ability of hearing Him more clearly when it is He who I listen to and wait upon. The revelations have the potential of being all the more magnificent.

Christian writer Ellen White says this:  The Lord is disappointed when His people place a low estimate upon themselves. He desires His chosen heritage to value themselves according to the price He has placed upon them. God wanted them, else He would not have sent His Son on such an expensive errand to redeem them. He has a use for them, and He is well pleased when they make the very highest demands upon Him, that they may glorify His name. They may expect large things if they have faith in His promises.

…But we are not to place the responsibility of our duty upon others, and wait for them to tell us what to do. We cannot depend for counsel upon humanity. The Lord will teach us our duty just as willingly as He will teach somebody else. If we come to Him in faith, He will speak His mysteries to us personally. Our hearts will often burn within us as One draws nigh to commune with us as He did with Enoch. Those who decide to do nothing in any line that will displease God, will know, after presenting their case before Him, just what course to pursue. And they will receive not only wisdom, but strength. Power for obedience, for service, will be imparted to them, as Christ has promised. Whatever was given to Christ–the “all things” to supply the need of fallen men–was given to Him as the head and representative of humanity. And “whatsoever we ask, we receive of Him, because we keep His commandments, and do those things that are pleasing in His sight.” 1 John 3:22.”

It is my prayer today that I will learn to patiently wait upon the Lord and put my faith and trust in Him… rather than in another human when seeking divine guidance.

God’s rich blessings to all who seek them,


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Dispelling The Fear Factor

Posted by on August 24, 2011  |  No Comments

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

For decade upon decade, believers in Christ’s family have struggled to stress God’s truth and request for obedience, while reflecting His love.

A focus I shared in an incredibly well received seminar this past weekend, is that we cannot share what we do not have. The fear factor in reaching out to gays/homosexuals is in desperate need of resolution.

I don’t think pastors realize how hungry their congregations are for solid biblical information and resources with regard to “reaching out” to the magnitude of souls either afflicted with same-sex attraction or effected by it because of someone who is dear to them.

It should not be a surprise that pastors and lay people seem to be walking in circles while grappling with “what to do.”  Right at their fingertips are souls who have been won to the cross of Jesus with His truth and heartfelt conviction. Yet for many, it still seems as though if it were that simple to return to God, why haven’t masses of other souls returned?

I’m always a bit tickled when I find pastors and scholars perplexed by the obvious. The remedy for sin is the same whether it be homosexuality, adultery, gossip, pride, over-eating, etc.  It seems that many are in search of that magic button. They look and look and listen and try to discover it in deep studies while it sits simply before them.

The relational part of their ministry seems to stop many cold in their tracks. Declaring God’s grace and forgiveness for these sinners who have been long alienated, seems still to be alien.

The Fear Factor. While fear is often verbally denied by those seemingly proclaiming an interest, the continual return to deep study and dissertations that don’t seem to extend beyond the church door confirm the ignorance of the need for practical application.

As those who have been personally convicted by Christ to return to Him, enter in, their sincerity and experiential knowledge seem to lay in question. What are we waiting for? Why does it seem that God allows His church to get backed into a corner where there is only the choice to reflect His love or cover your face with a book re-reading over and over the simple truth He points out to us while we cower with …. fear?  pride? familiarity? secrecy?

Every where I go, I am approached by masses who are seeking a practical “know how” approach to help those in dire need. We simply can’t share what we don’t have.  It is so very important that each of us engage in a relationship with Jesus that is constant. As we get to know Him personally, His clear Word tells us exactly what to do to meet our personal needs and to reach out and help others find their way.

Speak to or write your pastor or denominational leader today. Insist on hearing from those who have been lost, but have now been found. Why did they return? How is Jesus healing them? How do they hold on to Him? How has He held on to them? These are questions that can only be answered by the redeemed.

Scholars can offer foundation. But we have had the foundation for hundreds of years. It’s time to put in to practice what we learn when we study. It’s time to show the love that Jesus has shown us.  It’s time for His loving character to be perfectly revealed through His disciples.

I have waited a very long time to see the love that simply lay dormant while I was growing up. Can you hear Him speaking to your heart? Won’t you make an effort to love a sinner today?

God bless

“…and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”  Ephesians 5:2

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Posted by on August 17, 2011  |  No Comments

Please join me at the Grants Pass, Oregon Seventh Day Adventist Church

1360 North East 9th Street, Grants Pass, OR 97526

August 19 & 20, 2011

Friday evening at 7:00 PM

Hear my testimony “Out Of Innocence.”  A detailed account of growing up Christian, but lacking knowledge that God loved me in spite of my same-sex attraction.  The journey is from that of an unwanted infant to a redeemed and forever loved soul by Jesus Christ. The perils and hurdles and the victory that anyone is FREE to claim.

Saturday at 11:00 AM    “Engage”  What does it take to live in denial of self and the deceptive captivation of sin that focuses on anything but the Word of God. Can we overcome? What does God expect of us? Is it possible for the church to embrace homosexuality or homosexuals?  Are we afraid to love and yet abide in the truth Jesus has provided us?

Saturday afternoon at 3:00 PM  “Identity Matters”  Many “Christian” outreaches help to bring the wretched only so far into the redemption of Christ. By identifying as gay or homosexually oriented, we continue to focus on self and our disabilities and disclaimers instead of claiming what God purchased as a free gift for us. A “New Creation” in Him.  By only coming part way to Christ, thousands are hung up in involving Jesus, but not completely surrendering to Him, thus making a “Gay Christian”  or “Gay Adventist” an oxymoron.  It much like putting Jesus in wolves clothing in hopes that we can incorporate some residual of Him in the life of the afflicted.   This is the core of healing. Recognizing that our orientation is either to the world (self) or to Jesus and life that is eternal through Him.

Your prayers are solicited and greatly appreciated. These presentations are to reflect and give glory to God and recognize His power of healing, not to focus on the past and Satan’s deceptions.

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Posted by on August 7, 2011  |  No Comments

If you have been a regular reader here, you have no doubt witnessed the unsettling journey back into the church, which has been different than that of the loving and open arms of Jesus. However… just as Satan would impose upon us… he seeks to destroy hope, peace and the enduring love that is in Jesus.

Romans 8:1 tells me that there is no condemnation of those who are in Jesus Christ. Wow! That’s awesome isn’t it. It’s not permission to continue to sin, but the joy of being brought out of sin.

Recent events have boosted my Joy in Jesus. In the sincerity of our pleas before God, He listens and He answers. We are precious gold to Him. And we must recognize that gold goes through a refining process. The process can be trying and very painful. When we place ourselves before Christ, open and vulnerable, He is able to have us look at ourselves in a mirror. Sin stained, repulsive without the covering of Jesus, ugly with character flaws.

As we look at our revolting reflection and cry out to God, He then sees the permission we are giving Him to come in and do some much needed house cleaning. What a humbling experience! But the joy that result from having a cleaner interior, begins to be visible those observing the changes He has been successful at making.

Unexpectedly we are shocked at the observations of others and the changes God has made become a beacon of light to those who want to know what we have that they cannot seem to figure out.

We must not forget how lovingly God cares for us. While He sustains us in difficulty and soothes us with calming hymns and scripture, He also reminds us to REJOICE in Him for all that He is doing and all that He has accomplished.  We are His calling card.  Dark cards, with dim print don’t attract interested customers. But bright colors and shiny foil accents leave memorable impressions. We are God’s precious jewels.

By submitting ourselves to a purification process, we become a role model for those sunken in doubt and confusion. Whether it be the afflicted sinner or the professed pastor with great light; Jesus shines through us to every soul we meet and lives are changed because of Him.

“Carry a song in your heart.”  Most recently I had the privilege of meeting a guy who walks with Christ. His walk has been like mine, but for a longer time. God has made Him shiny gold, while I feel like I am still a dull gold. That’s because he has allowed Jesus to clean out the junk. Today and nearly any moment alone or with someone, you can find Him singing a beautiful hymn of conviction and reassurance. God promises transformation when we submit ourselves to Him and allow Him to make changes in our lives that keep us in tune (pun intended) with Him.

There is no better way to draw closer to Christ than by allowing and giving Him permission to access our every thought and influence every action. These are the tools He will use to keep us dependent on Him at every moment. Safety in the arms of Jesus.

I believe He has commissioned me to shed light on the lack of church love and addressing the needs and heart aches of those who are same-sex attracted. This can be challenging and disheartening at times. But above all, He asks that I show the same compassion to those who may not understand, as I had hoped to have had when I was alone with my attractions growing up in God’s church family without crucial validation.

So important to our healing and continuous walk with Christ is to maintain a spirit of forgiveness for the ignorance and seemingly lack of interest and love of others. This is tough for many and can only be maintained and obtained by abiding in Jesus.

The tenderness of Jesus brings about change. We are here to plant and water seeds. We don’t always see the results, because what God is doing is refining and growing the root system beneath the soil.

I am so very blessed to be in Jesus. I am so loved that He has provided experience and restoration rather than affirmation. He has built friendships to last throughout eternity. He has given patience to those who have had faith that they would see a transformation in my life if I would allow God to cleanse me with a refining fire.

A little at a time. He lets us rest in between and then carries us through yet another purification process. All to which brings freedom and glory to God.

There burns a fire with sacred heat
White hot with holy flame
And all who dare pass through its blaze
Will not emerge the same
Some as bronze, and some as silver
Some as gold, then with great skill
All are hammered by their sufferings
On the anvil of His will

The Refiner’s fire
Has now become my souls desire
Purged and cleansed and purified
That the Lord be glorified
He is consuming my soul
Refining me, making me whole
No matter what I may lose
I choose the Refiner’s fire

I’m learning now to trust His touch
To crave the fire’s embrace
For though my past with sin was etched
His mercies did erase
Each time His purging cleanses deeper
I’m not sure that I’ll survive
Yet the strength in growing weaker
Keeps my hungry soul alive     – Steve Green

God’s rich and healing blessings to all of you!


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Leaders Distance God’s Love For Gays

Posted by on August 4, 2011  |  No Comments

“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”  Romans 5:8

How is it possible for God’s chosen who have vowed to serve Him and show His love to EVERY sinner to continue to shun “this kind of sinner?”  1 Corinthians 6:9-11 tells us of the inclusive assortment of sinners who experience redemption and are welcomed in the kingdom of Heaven.  What love our dear Savior has to extend salvation to those who were born lost and confused. He redeems them. But who is it He deemed responsibility for sharing this crucial and heart felt information?

I always thought that a love of God’s Word and His truth and a love for ALL his children was what drove a convicted believer into ministry. Being raised on God’s love and in a Christ centered church, I thought this love would extend to me. I was so lost and confused. I was hurting. I had desires that I couldn’t understand and no spiritual guidance on the subject of homosexuality other than it is sin and you need to “stop it!”

There wasn’t a tender voice calling me home to the church and to Christ. Only distancing and those watching and waiting for God to reach me on His own as though I would one day wake up and realize my sickness and God’s conviction to return to the fold.  No outreach, no representation of God’s deep and forgiving love from a pastor or church elder.  No relational effort to convey God’s saving grace and power of healing which seemed to be extended for all other kinds of sin.

What’s missing? Why the isolation? Is this stuff catchy? Is it not important to deeply explore the deceptive feelings and misdirection of focus in a soul; whether young or old?  Why the fear factor over wrapping your arms around love hungry child of God?  Doesn’t God give confirmation of the reaching of any sin wrenched victim?

What about Paul?  What about Mary Magdalene, the demoniac, the Prodigal son  and many others?  Jesus gave tender and loving attention to those that were seemingly the least desirable.  Why do we fail at this? Why are we afraid to get our hands dirty? Why are we afraid to share Hope to the one deepest in need?

Proverbs 11:3 says that he that winneth souls is wise.

The bible tells of all the unlikely places that Jesus ministered and asked us to do likewise.

Is it any wonder that those ostracized from God’s family have fallen victim to their feelings of the need for love … even if it is Satan’s counterfeit love?  Such a power and strength in self-indulgence permiates society and is gaining ground rapidly.

Precious few have been convicted by an enlightenment by the Holy Spirit to return to the one who offers love, healing and eternal life. We are standing like palm trees in a hurricane of alienation; but with our roots running deep into the Word of Jesus and clinging to the cross.  We are considered misfits of skepticism by those who can’t seem to grasp that  … yes… God reached even us… and now… what do they do with us? And we are taunted as traitors by those seeking smooth sailing in a sea of deception. 

How is Jesus going to reach these lost souls without the loving arms of church communities. No…not arms that say… “Oh come here… worship with us …we’re all sinners.” … and then ignore their blatant disregard of God’s Word.   No!  Loving arms and hearts that represent the character of Jesus Christ. Providing knowledge and healing opportunities. Begging for a decision to let Jesus take over in their lives and let the Holy Spirit convict their hearts with a desire for truth and the seeking of forgiveness.    WHERE ARE THESE SOLDIERS OF CHRIST?  Do they really believe that without compassion and fully embracing even this sinner that our dear Lord is pleased?

And why do those who haven’t known how to love, fear the sinner that has returned; full of truth, knowledge and experience ready to aid the church. I have had promises extended and rescinded by church leaders.  Seemingly in fear that there is some false doctrine being promoted … or that my conversion is not real. And a host of other reasons Satan would use to maintain a distance so that one might be won back to Him.

“Even now,” declares the Lord, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning.” Joel 2:12

My dear brothers and sister in Christ… let the Holy Spirit speak to you and move upon you to insist that your pastors seek God’s guidance and compel them to call upon a redeemed “New Creation” who has returned to our powerful, loving and healing Savior.

Our identity in Jesus Christ is not a sexual identity, but a rescuing from a sexual identity that implores us to submit our will to Him and abide in Him for preservation and safety. 

Dear pastor or church leader… I call upon you to commune with God. Don’t limit Him. Don’t limit what He can do through you.  Philippians 4:13 says  that we can do all things through Christ. Give this burdened to Him and let Him lead you. Extend His offer of salvation to the repulsive and disgusting. We were all lost souls until we humbly accepted Him and cried out for His will to be done in us.

“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.”  2 Chronicles 7:14

Please don’t wait to extend God’s love and forgiveness to all who seek Him. I’m tired of this battle.  I want to go home… don’t you?

Please contact me if God is touching your heart with His tenderness and reveals to you that His love is for EVERY sinner. There is no fear of one whom speaks according to the Word of our heavenly father.

You can reach me at 360-936-8514 or by email at

God bless and guide you,

Wayne Blakely

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